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so, here we are. at my grunkle stan shrine- or at least, one of them. it's me and grunk (potentially) forever y'all. and apparently, a lot of people feel the same! the outpouring of love the internet has given my favorite grunkle in the Year of Our Lord 2024-25 has filled my heart with such joy. i'm legitimately glad that other people see him in the same positive light that i do.
maybe this is true for other Stan stans, but i see a lot of myself in him. feeling unwanted and unloved in my own environment, not being good enough, and seemingly failing at every venture... yeah, that's real as hell. covering up my weakness and my soft underbelly with bluster and bravado, when all i want is to finally love and be loved. feeling trapped in my own destiny, chasing after other people perpetually... yeah. Stan's got sad old man energy and i adore him anyway, busted knees and all (i have a fucked up back and really bad eyesight, i get it).
i love him and his artistic vision. i love his incredible dedication and undying love for his family. i love how he doesn't give up on people- i only wish that someone wouldn't give up on him. i could go on and on about what i like about The Hairiest Man in Oregon, USA, like... forever. i love him from his mullet era to his showman era- stan's got it all, to me.
i guess my yumeship journey with stan started in the fall of 2024. i've always been someone who gave my all into relationships as best as i could, but was often met with dispassionate gazes and a lack of understanding. i guess me being extremely autistic is a humongous dealbreaker for most. i'm not sure if y'all who are reading this believes in astrology, but several of my primary placements are in the 7th house- the house of relationships with others. i truly am happy when i am in healthy relationships of any kind- i shine bright in ways that can only be brought on by healthy community. because of this, i spent a lot of my misguided late teens/early twenties chasing after people who couldn't give me even a shred of the respect that i deserved. i poured my heart into people who just... couldn't. i guess after a particularly bad ""Situationship"" (this word is evil) in 2023 and escaping abusive relationships, i felt defeated. my heart was full, it was so full, but no one wanted any of it.
i guess this is where yumeshipping comes into play. sometimes, incredibly Cruel and Unusual events are what gets you to return to the things that once made you happy. i fell back into yumeshipping, because this was a safe way to explore relationships without subjecting myself to harm (i guess. wonder what mental health professionals think about this /joke). i always liked stan, but i guess my Frontal Lobe fully developing was what got me to start loving him. weird, right? i honestly don't think it's that weird. he did win the tumblr sexyman competition of 2025, so many people probably feel similarly. anyway... Stan. he just kept standing out to me, and i eventually (begrudgingly) realized that MAN!!! I LOVE THIS GUY!!! HOLY SHIT!!! and that was that. in many communities that i'm a part of, i'm known as the grunkle stan guy. i love this and wouldn't want it any other way. sorry if this was just the ramblings of someone with a mile long list of mental health issues. i just wanted a dedicated page to stan with lots of text in it. haha hehe hoho
