listening: glory box // portishead
watching: borat 2
reading: children of the self-absorbed / nina w. brown

i have not written in so long! so much has happened: i went to several concerts, my 24th birthday was last sunday, i dyed part of my hair pink, i went to the local cherry blossom festival, watched a ton of movies, made into my master's program, am taking a break from school... this break has been very good for me, since i finally have time to rest and am not overworking myself like i used to. much of my time has been spent dealing with my myriad of health problems, ignoring issues and running away from myself. recently i've been busy practicing my hobbies like crochet, yoga... rather than chasing after people who do not care for me. learning to say "no" and be around individuals who actually care for me.
such is hard and lonely, but necessary. for the first time, i feel clear-headed and confident, less disgusted in myself or afraid of what others will think. it's become easier to be an active participant in my own life, going out to festivals, concerts... doing things alone, too. it feels silly that it's taking this long to become autonomous and "normal" but everyone's life runs on different times.
outside of these ~personal reflections~, i've been Doing Stuff. been obsessed with movies lately, especially horror films! i saw some movies that were on my list this year, like guillermo del toro's crimson peak. i also began collecting figurines, as well as other stuff. a lot of these things are things i wanted to do when i was little, externalizing my hobbies and having stuff that represents the things i like.
i guess that's it for now! see you later.