listening: amor gitano // la lupe
watching: twin paranormal on youtube
reading: nothing at this moment

i guess updates are monthly for my website? i haven't done much this academic semester art-wise due to mental rotting and fungus evolution. i have no real updates outside of i quit my old, unsatisfying job and started a new internship with a significantly better program that won't batter me emotionally !! incredible how life works out. i've been forgiving towards myself and attempting to mourn the person i could have become if i was diagnosed earlier in life. sometimes i still struggle with the whole laziness versus my disability mindset, trying not to hate myself for "not constantly achieving" when all my body wants is to slow down.

times are somewhat hard for me. i'm exhausted and need a lot of help, where thankfully i can get it. need to stop hating myself for asking for help but such a thing takes a lifetime to unlearn. i don't know what the point of this entry is outside of rambling. thanks for reading! hopefully i have something more interesting to say next time.