listening: amanojaku // RAON ver.
watching: coffeehouse crime on youtube
reading: wintering // katherine may

long time no see! i've been struggling with my health quite a bit recently, so i was unable to really have time for much outside of work and school. maybe this is not known, but i'm disabled and have some other health problems lately i've been wrestling with the idea that i'm not "trying hard enough" or "doing enough", but i have to learn to accept that my disability is exactly what it is- a disability. i will always struggle and i won't succeed without accomodations and comparing myself to abled people always ends in failure! everyone is different, and i need to Internalize that life isn't a competition. it's meant to just be lived the way you would like.

while i was gone, i've done quite a bit of things. i watched a ton of movies and went out to events quite a bit! i suffer from horrible anxiety on top of my disability and struggle to go out and make myself known, so this is an achievement for me. i went to a local zine festival and made a lot of progress in decorating my room!! i also got into the studying groove and am doing a lot better academically because of it. i'll also be tabling at a local event- yay! i also went to the local farmer's market at my uni and got some cool things!! here's some photos from my recent endeavors:

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i'm so happy to have gone out of my comfort zone. even though i've been struggling, good things have happened too! i guess the lesson learned from these recent months is that victories can be very small, and that sadness as well as joy coexist and can happen at the same time. i hope that the recent months have been treating you all well, and that you guys have been resting + honoring your boundaries!!! please remember that it's okay to say no and it's even more okay to ask for help! love you all